I need to start paying attention more to the people who are there for me and genuinely care for me instead of those who can care less.

I feel like such an awful person. I have Jenn constantly asking to see me she told me she wants to make sure I am okay and wants to hear what I am going through. She actually wants to sit next to me and hear the things that haunt me. She is willing to take a break from being pregnant and all these things to hear about ME. And all I do is shun her away. I have Matt asking me if I'm okay every night and asking if I need anything. I have countless nice guy asking to take me out to eat and listen about my life. Actually ASK ME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY LIFE AND TALK TO ME. They actually are interested in what I have to say. And I shun them.

All I can do is devote my time to someone....forget it. I don't even want to talk about this anymore. I am too ashamed of myself.