I am not this person.

I am a strong person. No one's actions or thoughts affect me. Where have I gone? Why have I let a minuscule nobody affect me so much?

I am ten times better than the words other people say about me. I know all sides of every story and I take it into account. I've been an independent person for over a year now. Where have I gone?

Snapping out of it.

I layed in bed today and stared at my white boring walls. I never decorated my room because I knew I never wanted to be a prisoner to my own room. I don't make anything homey because I've never really had a home, or a place I've felt comfortable in. I get restless and bored staying in one place and I love to always be moving.

So as I stared at my white wall today, I thought to myself, "I have so much ahead of me." I have so much to look forward to. I have a million new people I have yet to meet. I have a million more first kisses and falling in love moments left to live. My life is just starting. In January, I'll be done with New Jersey. My time here will be expired and I'll move onto new and better things. And the people that have hurt me so much will stay here. And infest New Jersey some more and turn it into what its become. A pit of poisonous cruel soul-less sorry excuse for what humans should be.

Time to continue studying. Doctor's appointment at 4:30pm to hopefully get some pain killers because I can't even move or speak. Then Intro to Law Exam.

Hm, then what. Stat HW I guess. And avoiding all contact with people that made me forget who I really am.